Coming back from a vacation is interesting. First, you’re like I get to sleep in my own bed! Then, you realize I get to sleep in my own bed at HOME. Where there is laundry, chores, bills, and e-mail waiting. Then, I open said e-mail and I am fine until I get to THE one. The one I didn’t want to think about again. The one that makes me sad. About my daughter’s friend. I go through the entire range of emotions again. I have a rush of memories that come back as I imagine being her mom for a second. I do this thing that I always do whenever I hear about something sad…I become that person for a moment. It does NOT help.
So instead, I have been focusing on trying very hard, oh so very hard, to live in the now. Thank you to my support team who helps me focus when I get lost. I know you are all going through your own things right now, and whether or not we have ever met, or we talk everyday, I really appreciate the cyber-hugs and real hugs. I am focusing as best I can on what I can control.