Lately I feel like I have been left at the airport baggage claim area, and I am watching the bags go round and round while I try to figure out which ones are mine to pick up. Whoa. There are some who have way more baggage than I do, but at times I feel like I don’t know how to handle my light carry-on luggage, so how am I even going to carry the rest? Which ones do I pick up? Can I just leave some here? Maybe I don’t even need all that stuff for my trip anyway.
I follow a few blogs and research more when I am trying to get my thoughts together. I stumbled across this really interesting talk (lecture) on The Power of Vulnerability
I put myself out there as best I can in my writing, but I know I hold back. I have been feeling numb since before Christmas. Completely and totally numb. Yes, I know the day it started. Yes I know why. I need a good slap like in Moonstruck. I’m sure there are volunteers for that, but you have to wait your turn. At any rate, the only person who can make me change my thoughts are me, myself and I. What you think is what you do. I know this. So I have a new plan forming. I am not going to lie. I have no energy to make myself do the “plan”. That’s where some of my good friends are going to come in. The ones who want to get healthy and need a buddy. The ones who want to run this race I have not even started training for. Ha. The ones who want me to go back to playing soccer after 20 years (oh wait, that’s my husband). Ha ha ha. The ones who remind me to go to yoga, even though I love it, but would rather come home and get in my PJ’s and read a book. Seriously.
I might get mad at you. I might come up with a million excuses as to why I can’t go workout at the gym after work. Please see through them. Here is a book I might need to read. You might need it to lighten your baggage. You never know until you’ve tried.
“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.” ~Ambrose Redmoon