Okay, health groupies. I know you’re out there so this one’s for you. For any of my friends who suffer from one of the invisible diseases, I just want you to know that I feel your pain…literally. I have been contemplating writing this post all night because I am in such a mood. I had another doctor’s appointment today, and while I won’t go into details, I just want it to stop. Tonight I have been contemplating how much I dislike all you “normal” people. That’s right. I said it. I guess I never thought it would come to that. I remember a post almost two years ago that a friend wrote. She said she “hated” the normal people. I thought everyone on her friend’s list was going to be upset, but instead they were so wonderful. I had tears in my eyes. They all told her it was okay to feel like that sometimes and that they understood. She had every right to be angry and they knew she was tired of trying to fight. I told her to keep her spirits up…until the day she passed away.
The truth is, we all go through times like this. Whether it’s sickness, envy, pain, regret, or remorse there are times we all dislike someone no matter what the reason is. A long time ago, a friend once told me it hurt her to see me so happy. It took a lot of courage to say that. I respected her for it and even though it sounds horrible, I understood what had been happening with her finally. No one can tell you how you should think or feel in any given situation, so “Finish each day and be done with it.” Emerson was spot-on…and if I have used this quote before it bears repeating.
“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson