A recurring theme in my blog is lack of sleep. Tonight I started thinking about that cool contraption from the mind of J.K. Rowling. I would like to have a Pensieve in my room in order to store my memories and review them at a later time. There are many reasons why I find this device practical, but for tonight, it is merely to get the thoughts out of my head and into the basin so to speak. I passed a terrible accident this morning on the way to work and have not been able to get it out of my head. It was one of those days when you start thinking about things you would change or do differently if you had the chance. The problem with this line of thinking is that it spirals into all kinds of other corners that are better left alone in the dark recesses of your mind. If just one event is changed, it could alter your future.
I stand firm in my belief that things happen for a reason. Even terrible things that I would like to change. I am thinking of some footage I saw tonight on another wave of terrible storms and tornadoes. People might be asking why is this happening to them, but I think the better question is what do we do next? I am sure that this is a hard concept to grasp for people who have lost everything, but I feel like it gives you a purpose. The same can be said for my friends fighting cancer. This one has always been near to my heart, and if you have been following my blog, you know why. I replace the pain I felt over losing friends and family members with hope. So many people are beating this disease everyday…and one day soon, a cure will be found.
I might regret some things I have done or said in my lifetime, but one thing is for certain, I was meant to do that at that particular time. I can’t see the whole picture, and I wouldn’t want to. Think of all the good you have brought someone and then think if you had never met that person. What if you didn’t take that chance to say hello, or try to make the effort to remain friends? How different your life would be. One of my friends was talking about how life runs in cycles. It is important to remember that even if you feel this is a bad time in your life, soon enough, this cycle will turn into another. Take a risk every once in a while. Put some things in the Pensieve if it helps you sleep. But do not regret…learn from it instead.
“If you wait to do everything until you’re sure it’s right, you’ll probably never do much of anything.”